Organizing my Thoughts

Frankly speaking this piece would be more of a mind babble than anything as I need to get a lot of things off my mind and chest, I’m at a point in life when I’m paralyzed by fear: I can’t get comfort through playing games or to move forward with business because of the things to come, and there’s a lot of things to come since I’m moving out of my comfort zone once more.

Bracelets of Promise

One of the biggest reason for fear is that I’m starting my own business, it’s not a big one, but it’s something that I have been fond of: beaded bracelets.

The brand is called tomoe.ph and it’s still at a very young infant stage where the possibility could be endless — which includes success and failure. Tomoe bracelets won’t empower you spiritually like some other brands claim, and it’s not for pure aesthetics either (but it does look good if I can say so myself). The greatest reason why I want people to wear my bracelets is not as a fashion accessory but as a symbol of a promise one has made to themselves, to remind them everyday: “I can grow greater, I will be greater and there are better things for me when I choose to get out and live beyond my comforts.”

I believe that everyone who can remind themselves of their own goals and focus, can achieve what they have set their heart and mind in to, sometimes we just need help in the reminding — and our bracelet solves that.

So here I am, starting this life of discomfort of what are to come, because I crave for a greater purpose, a higher calling and a better ability to serve others. I hope you can be part of my journey in this business not just as a buyer but as a listener, a mentor and a critique on how I can make this adventure better as an audience, a customer or a friend.

Audience of One

There was an activity over Instagram that made a lot of people write essays about other people in quite a semi-anonymous execution and on the few people I participated, there’s one sentence that stood out the most, I don’t remember the verbatim statement but it went something like this:

It is easier to be me because of you

As introverted that I am, I always hoped that I could influence the life of some people, be someone that matters among the multitude of strangers but here and now, in the age of 29, I have never mentored anyone in a level that’s personal or that I could say I was part of their success or happiness. Heck, I was just bantering a little over my partner about how I wanted a “deep connection” above all. So, to see those 9 words to be dedicated to me is… Overwhelming.

Purpose for Publishing

I read this book titled “do less, be more” by John Busacker recently and it had a very interesting quote in it:

To pass away without passing on your own story is like having the town library burn down — and its one-of-a-kind historical archives with it.

That struck a chord hard because I know a lot of people do live my story:

Good child, got good grades, graduated and got a job.

I was neither a failure or a success, I didn’t have a dramatic history turn around nor my high standing go crash and burn, I am ordinary, normal, probably 70% of the middle class life that just strives and survives. It’s a rat race, a cycle and a frustrating one at that.

Thankfully, I was saved and I learned to be content and happy.

Maybe, just maybe that is why I should write, because in the number of people around the Internet, I hope to have even just one read my story and say “Hey I should try that!” or “If that guy can do it, so can I”, because my story is not about drastic miracles changing from rags to riches, steel bars to gold, about how people change 180 degree with a flip. No, it’s about seasons and how time and mentorship can change a life from the warm colors of autumn into a vibrant season of spring.

I have stood in the shoulder of giants with the help of my brother, if he can change as average guy like me a to a man with respectable status, what makes you think you can’t be. I believe you can and I hope my story moves you from where you are to where you can be.