The thing about stepping up and trying to be better in the workplace is that there lies the opportunity that challenges will come without your utmost capability and you will fail — fail badly that it will affect everything. I’m horrible at that, both failing and taking failure. Right, now that is what I have. As much as I would like to overcome, I see myself defeated at this point.
Stepping out of my comfort zone in managing a team of few to something greater, being asked questions answering emails to the best of my ability, it takes more memory and quality assurance to get all these right. Especially now that I know I’m not the kind that has natural leadership ability unlike my brother. So it pains me to say that as soon that I took the mantle from him I’ve had consistent failures to present under my management.
It was a big name I’ve failed, this isn’t just any project that could go under the rug. It wasn’t just any ordinary anyone that I could’ve opted to provide such decency and leeway to make such horrible mistakes.
I hate it. All this, I aspired for this day to improve my project but I couldn’t shake off the feeling of being a disappointment. While it was Sean that was shamed, truth is it was my ability that enable the lack of quality assurance in the end product.
I can be so much more but right now but I’ll choose to sulk in my failure. Because I have failed both my leader and my brother at this point.
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Benj
You’re a great boss and a better human being. It’s a pleasure to work for you and to learn from you.