Day 3 of Awareness: Focus

To fight against your demons, your failures, and all things that put you down: Focus on the good.

On my post on Arrogance, there was transparency that fear of change was present and unwillingness is the instinctive reaction regarding to that instance. As the day went by, the response for this external change was to change internally. To shift perspective and to take the bad to good, and to focus on a goal and competitively attain it.

It worked.

Today, a praise came a long: “Proud of you.” and it was the sweetest part of the day. Fear turned into joy and anxiety into peace. If you feel helpless, panicked and swarmed, it maybe because you’re looking at the wrong part of your vibrant life, or you’re looking at so many things at once. Close your eyes, breathe and look at it one by one, do not get paralyzed by the numbers. Even 1 may reach into infinity if given a span of infinity. There are so many things around we have either chosen to ignore, or familiarity had degraded it’s value. As a camera can shift it’s focus from a crisp foreground to a background, focus on the good things: things you cherish, things you can accomplish and what you have accomplished.

Start on having a goal and keeping it in check. We are not meant to keep everything in focus at once: not our eyes, not our brains. In time, you will finish what you plan.

If you have visited my post once again, you are someone that’s keeping me focus. I’m writing this blog tired, sleepy and spent. But as someone that is reading this item once again, pinging the number of readers in my statistics: Thank you. You are what keeps me going in my commitment to finish this journal of 365 days.

Day 2 of Awareness: Risks

Today was about risks, going to the gym sick, making decisions on a field I’m not an expert in, understanding an offended party and joining a coffee appreciation seminar.

All for the sake of self improvement, growth and Kaizen. Investing in your health, yourself and your presence of mind feels good and is good. Yet a lot of people seem to overlook it.

There is a parable of a lumber that reminds me of this situation, a short summarized version if I may:

There was a lumber jack who was able to cut down 20 trees on his first day, 15 on his second and 10 on his third. While his muscles were still in a better shape than before, his force and damage to the trunk seems to dwindle. Finally as he was perplexed on how in a day his record turned from 20 to 5 a day, his mentor merely asked him if he has sharpened his axe, he didn’t.

It’s not all about effort, it’s also the one who makes the effort. Your axe is your skill, your tasks are your lumber. The more you improve and diversify your skill, the better chances of you finding out inspiration and fulfilment in your life and work.

So in your routinary life, do something that makes you scared, invest in something to gain and be against a cycle. Make that dent in your schedule. Mine is probably going to be that study of coffee.

Lose yourself, love the grind, because in the end it’s only going to make you damn fine. Pun intended ZING!

I’m also just trying to convince myself to go to that coffee appreciation event as it is my dream to establish a cafe someday.

Day 1 of Awareness: Arrogance

As the CEO was talking about restructuring and my position shifted to a position of authority to innovation and research I felt some tinge in my pride feeling demoted from what I saw as a higher role.

Help has always been welcome and usually arrives as free. Arrogance changes that, thinking that the capability to accomplish such a task if can be done alone, should be done alone. Sometimes, it is not about being the champion, not about who completes the work, but how optimized the work was completed.

Change was another challenge and a pain for arrogance, the way it feels to be shifted, disrupted, denied of comfort and the fulfillment of one’s desire, shakes my calm. It’s scary and the fear of uncertainty haunts each sleep.

But we all know that the only constant thing in this world is change.

Being aware is the first step of solving a problem. Although, the root maybe deep embedded by nature and by growth, it is not to say it is impossible to be humble.

The first step is the biggest in every decision, but it is the journey of a thousand if not a million that’s hardest to endure. Then again, change is never a destination, but a journey.

It starts now.

I just read an article about this word “Kaizen” which translate to “Continuous Improvement”, maybe I’ll integrate it in this project. As a title, or as a side note. Who knows, but one thing is for sure, I’d like that as a mantra for this year.

365 Days of Awareness

As a man that has been blessed with so much, I have come to a point where I don’t know what to do and I feel out of purpose.

For the past 2 weeks I have been dry coughing, and for the recent two days there has been blood with my phlegm. As much as I am hopeful with the supplements and the antibiotic I have drank, things haven’t been improving. So came this thought: As much as we’re all dying in each day that passes, what if the days are numbered?

It’s times like these that it is time to be thankful to be disrupted of the good. Hard slapping the truth that bad things could happen, comfort can end and there is a necessity for balance in this life. Being lost on euphoria takes away the pleasure of being alive and the sense for placing goals. The need to chase for something greater drives us, we have to deny ourselves of something to keep us going.

So now this is what I will do in regarding to this mantra: I’m starting my own project, and like every project I have started – I don’t know if I’m going to finish it. But I will play this one as if I only have a year left to exist, and this will be my diary on recording each day, aware of what happened, knowing compassion, drive and desire of others and of myself. It can span to be as long as 6 paragraphs or just 1. What’s important for this project is to increase awareness rather than drifting in this life without direction.